Wishlist:
1) For people to actually realise that I do have a limit - and not push it

Most of the time I feel so fucking sick of having to tolerate
Its like I try to most of the time but the more I tolerate, the more things happen, and the more I have to control my anger
Its damn fucked up when that happens and so that explains the one and only fucking wish on my fucking wishlist

and I don't fucking care if I'm using "fucking" like as though it makes sense at all

E-LEARNING SUCKS!

How often do you actually find (orgasmic) hot guys who are neither gay nor jerky?

Never
and don't worry im not having an orgasm I just have to show you all how unfair god is to us girls sometimes

I wana buy black high cut chucks
and maroon chucks
I love shoeeeeees

and more clothes
gna start saving! I hope

darlings

I will live like as though all the money I got are for cigs.

this damn motherfucking house.
i'd rather smoke till i die
this house is the same as being locked up.
fuck this shit im outta here
and its not because im a fucking immature rebel
I REALLY CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE ITS DRIVING ME NUTSSSSS

aww I love nicole and heather big time + 4evaaaaaaaaa

thanks for being here for me xp & xb heheheeee i was so touched i could cry.

and Ak and sya too for accepting me still. (L) you all

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okay im fucking happy now cause my parents allow me to go night cycling with mi classmatez tmr which is quite awesome of them it's like a miracle! luv mi parents too haha

haizx i wana meet nicole and heather

I have a sudden craving for.....






ASPARAGUS WRAPPED IN BACON!!!!!

bitter

Idk why I just keep getting myself into deeper shits
just my fuckin luck.
or maybe it ain't luck. its just my fucked up life.
I'm sorry.

Today, I suay. dont wana talk about it.
went to school to do proj but nothing happened. gona do again tomorrow. went to nicole's place after school. had dinner, off to ice cream chefs. first time there. dont really like it. then to parkway, played billiard haha for the first time. then her brother in law sent me home. tonight was kinda fun. day, not so.
Today, it's official. I got it off my heart, told him.. I feel bad like fucking seriously it's killing me but its either this or It'd be the same. which isnt good at all. yeah. Im sorry.
Today, I found out the first impression people have of me.
Today, I realised how god can really hate me.
Today, I lost someone.
Today marks a new beginning



HI LEON

So the first day of my holiday shall be spent ..... in school doing projs haha. damn,the museum one is difficult to understand. am i that stupid? yeah maybe. gona do on fashion design thou, "Christian Lacroix the costumier". awesome! I realise that I love my course and the tasks given. really interesting However the time given to do the work is just shizzz.. especially studio project. im still considering if i should repaint the bag. i suck at painting god damn it!

saturday was fun, nicole and I alone haha we are such lonely people. anyway, we went to tiong bahru. the place is fine. super calm. we watched a movie and had a picnic inside. it was funny at that point of time. pie kia = awesome. haha. we watched ghost of girlfriend's past i think. yeah. and the official trailer of Disney Pixar's UP! as of now im stressing out on all the projs i gotta do.. model making one's okay, gona get the museum one done and over with tomorrow and finally... the design methodology one. super stressful I dont frickin get it la. so much for being in the holiday mood. i somehow prefer having classes okay im becoming a nerd. officially. must be the weather

Im gona miss my class this holiday haha . awwwwww


I can't explain how I feel. and I dont even know why I feel it.

ya okay so anw visited syaza at her workplace just now with nicole and joseph . then she went to teo heng and ditched me haha thank god joseph came la. we walked around looking for my break menthol. nevermind, marlboro works best. so yeah.. we played at ion or icon whatever it is' arcade. harley davidson seh!!!!!!!!!! 2 bucks for a game but frickin awesome lahhhhhhh i love! then at the cinema's there was a small thing to watch the trailer for the movie Up. the scout is daaaaaaaammmmmmnnnnnnn cute ok small fat scout. im gona download the trailer now and watch it till i sleep. anw i gotta save up for a new phone man. and maybe that Iriver plus mp3. plays video leh but i already have an mp3 man. im too greedy. starting from next month im not gona spend so much on food. its time to save up for my own things. im maturing! k wtf.
i guess life's just getting better. only one problem left: cant say it here though i wish i could. maybe i should tell him. but i dont wana be mean. whatever forget about it. ever since school started, life's been awesome. i like my class. a lot. the only thing is about time management. not on projs, but the amount of time i spend with both my classmates and nicole. its tough. i suddenly remembered something and that's that on my birthday I wished that nicole, heather, arshu and I would stay friends till the end. awww haha so touching. i hope it really comes true man.
ta!

list of projs:
1) Life and death thumbnails due tuesday
2) museum review - fashion
3) research on paper automata
4) mark out blue foam
5) redo and correct perceptive drawings
6) egg holder
7) material technology questions


Met my friends after school and dinner. played pool what's new haha. I wana shop. and I guess I really am getting fucked up. ouh well

I doubt anyone comes here ahhaha so loner talk to myself on my blog.

anw, peanut butter cereal + coke zero is awesome. they go well
so i spent 90 this week. -10 for my card, -20 on cigs. wow leaves me with 60 solely on food wtf and it's only from tuesday till today. i should stop eating the world

so my day went pretty well after school. met nicole soon for 2 hours.. we walked and talked and got bit by mosquitoes. romantic at sky garden mah. then she met her mumsie haha and I went to meet Jeremy and Robin. at least they both got a sense of humour. im sick of guys with no sense of humour; nothing. okay yay im doomed i've not started on my cs proj which i will have to present tomorrow

Last night till this afternoon wasn't good. got stared at by some woman for smoking (I was fuckin far from her breathing in some smoke isn't gona kill u immediately motherfucka) , bus door closed on me , waited for 45 like a bitch, got my period, got left behind in school by the stupid art histteacher (who can eat my shit for the rest of his life).

It was fun at night thou. with Leon and his never ending busted jokes
Somehow I miss nicole and classic pool
ass, if only you're not working :(
char kway teowwwwwwwww

stupid nicole's bet on boyfriends. haha. im gona lose and treat her to her stupid carbonara which she will choke on. okay I shan't be mean.
so ya, typical saturday today. just that heather stepped out of her shop for once and came with us to classic. im hungry. craving for char kway teow. as usual

School's been good
syaz & ak = half gone